This was Lana’s first flight. And we were having long flight to Singapore.

On the day, I had meeting with my boss. So Lana was taken care by baby sitter for two hours. She didn’t take a nap at all. When I picked her up at 5 she seems so alert! When we reached home, I continued packing. Lana was playing with daddy. Maybe she was too excited as she didn’t seems to be sleepy at all. End up I packed till 9 pm. Then just 15 min before we left, she had her drink and felt asleep. She slept thru until we reached the gateway airport parking!

She seemed to enjoy when we were driven to airport thru shuttle bus. Checked in was open early but by the time we completed ours, it was almost 1 am. So we decided to walk to the gate and rest. But Lana didn’t let me rest! She was too curious of her surrounding! She observed and looked around. Boarding time… I started to worry because she was still so alert! Will she cried during take off?

Lana’s daddy was the one who slept whilst waiting for boarding…

Then 10 min before take off she dozed off while sucking her pacifier! Phew! It was full flight. I wondered how if her voice filled the plane.

I was so alert after I boarded the plane!

After the sit belt sign was off, I put her on bassinet. I had a wonderful dinner as she slept thru! And after that, we had a short nap before the sit belt sign was on. I needed to carry Lana on my lap and she was awake! I am glad she felt asleep again after her drink. I couldn’t put her on bassinet anymore as the sit belt sign was on all the way!

I was glad that oli was in the flight with me. I didn’t think I could handle Lana by myself as I need to carry bags and made milk…

Before our breakfast Lana was awake and wanted to play. So I had my breakfast with Lana on my lap. Phew! But I managed to finished my breakfast! Lana played all the way till 15 minutes before landing… She slept again! It was a nice flight with her being so manageable! We landed Singapore safely with Lana on my lap.

Lana’s aunty, Hanna gave us a surprise to pick us up from airport! She didn’t told us that she was coming. She said she missed Lana too much. But my other friend was there to drive us back. I was glad that we didn’t need to queue for taxi or squeeze in the train! On the way to sembawang home… Lana fall asleep again!

Lana with aunty’s HuiNee. Thank you aunty and uncle Alan for picking us from airport. Lana loved the Audi

Before the trip I was worry if Lana could handle noise in Singapore whilst she slept. But she slept thru all the noises! Seemed like she was too tired. Then on the same day Lana great grandparent and great aunties and uncle reached!

Lana with great grandma

Lana with great aunt

Lana with great uncle

This will be the first time I out Lana in the care of other…. I know it will be hard for me but I guess that I have no choice as I am going for interview. This is the home base programmer job. So… Instead of just taking care of Lana at home, I do some program before I forget what I have learnt at uni

I m not comfortable thinking of putting Lana at day care as she is too young…. Luckily my ex colleague’s wife is willing to help me to take her we had brief meeting yesterday with them, Lana was crying whenever she carry her. I hope because Lana is too tired as we have been going out the whole morning. and she should be fine later

Presaging myself forth interview first

Today she is 8 weeks 2 days. She just hit her second growth spurt. Hubby not around so I need to handle her every one and half hours-60 mils feeding. She grows a lot. I get tired when carrying her too long my big girl.

Tomorrow she is going to have her first vaccination. I bet that she won’t cry. she had her first vitamin k injection while she born and had her blood drew from her heel nine times as well as from her hand once. She didn’t cry much!

Wish her daddy come back soon

We were back from Papua last Friday, and this will be my last travel until my baby born. We are back to cold and windy Toowoomba winter. Being in humid country and being pregnant, it felt horrible. I perspired a lot, and even with 18 degree aircon, I only use one very thin bed sheet as my blanket. In the afternoon, I felt grilled. Wanted to rest in the room, but because the room is not insulated properly, turning on 18 degree aircon was pretty useless. Luckily three weeks passed pretty fast! In the three weeks, attended three birthday parties; one of my nephew’s from my husband side, my mother in law’s and mine! I am 29th now. One more number before my age start from “3″.

Before we went to Papua, on the fifth months of my pregnancy, we went to China for three weeks to check if there’s business opportunities that we can bring in to Australia. Well, there’re a lot of opportunities, but maybe we should not start now as the baby’s due date is 5 weeks from now. We will rethink again this business opportunities next year most likely. In that three weeks, we went to HK, Shenzhen, Dongguan and Macau. Look like this baby will be “traveller” next time.

Last Monday, we went to doctor for the regular checkup. Everyone that I met said my stomach is so big for the first baby. So I asked doctor but the doctor said it’s in normal size. Guess what… my next dumb question is, is it normal Asian size or Westerner size. The doctor replied me with a big smile saying depend on your diet. If you eat Asian food, then will be asian size and vice versa. But overal, the doctor said, it’s in good size and good position (with the head on the bottom now). I do not have much trouble in this pregnancy, except recently, my sleeping patterns are getting worse and worse. Wake up lots of time to go to toilets and also when i slept in my side too long, my waist hurt. Guess that this will be faced by all pregnant woman in the world! I really look up at them :0

My feeling still mixed. I asked the doctor if I should go for natural or cesarian birth. The doctor asked me to wait till 36th week (3 weeks away) to determine that. My baby might reach 3.6 kilos. So if more than 3.6 kilos, it’s better to go for cesarian birth. We shall wait then….

So far I have increased 16 kilos, so most likely I will reach 20 by the end of my pregnancy. My cousin, who just gave birth last June said she only increased 6 kilos and now she slim down 10 kilos already. That’s good! hopefully I can go back to my normal weight .

Mmmm at home I dont have anything much to do. Except, try to go to swim in the morning when I dont feel sleepy or setting up the nursery room. Pram is there now, but the cot is still in the box . Most likely I do it in the next few days….

Mom is coming in a month time… I am looking forward to that!

Guess what!??? I am married for 210 days, 5040 hours, 302411 minutes and 18144702 seconds today at 15:12. My life turning event does not stop only stop here. I am also 30 weeks 6 days pregnant and sitting at the patio at my in law’s PNG home. My baby, which we are not very sure of the gender yet will due in 9 weeks 1 day time. My feeling… mix of excitement and scared!

Based on the What To Expect.com, my baby is as big as a head of lettuce which is 45.72 cm length and 1.45 kg. We still not sure the gender of our baby yet, but my husband seems like pretty confident it’s a girl from our last scan. But actually, we are happy with either boy or girl as long as the baby is healthy

This baby has been flying with me to Singapore, Hongkong, China and PNG. Look like it will be a traveller in the future lol.

I am having a pretty smooth pregnancy. Only the first 2 months I had a bad hair loss and morning sickness. But honestly my husband get more morning sickness than me. LOL. So… when he had morning sickness, I was ok for the whole day! Doctor said it’s normal as the connection between my husband and me might be very strong that’s why he got the sickness. Our first scan was at 11th weeks. The doctor mentioned my baby is a big baby. LOL. Well if it get my husband genes, then it will be a big baby. Because my husband was born 9.6 pounds.

Only these two weeks I started to feel difficulty in walking when I sit or lie down too long. The pain is at the pelvis part. I think it starts to open to get ready for the baby to come out. I also start to feel tired and restless during the day. AND I can’t hold my pee anymore. I think the baby is squashing my bladder. If i hold my pee too long, I have trouble in walking. And at night….. almost every hour I need to go toilet! Now in PNG, this toilet habit cause me can’t sleep well at night cos I need to walk at least 40 steps to the toilet! After I came back from toilet, I need to use at least 30 minutes to try to sleep again.

Another major changes is that I have lots lots of acne on my neck, chest as well as my back. Lots of people said because it’s a boy. During my trip to China last month (25 weeks pregnant), lots of people also said I am having a boy cos of the shape of my stomach, which is as round as basket ball as well as my big red nose. I also had a black line from my chest to my pelvis area through the belly button (again sign of boy!). Then my husband and me went through the Old wives tales gender lists, looks like 75% I am carrying a girl. Sample of the tests are I prefer vegetable than meat, my face is getting fuller and rounder, I have lots of acne, I don’t smell when I ate garlic, etc.

Overall, I love being pregnant although I have quite a lot of stretch marks on my belly now. In another 9 weeks I will be carrying this baby on my arm. But till now, I still haven’t decide if I will go through natural or cesarian birth. I want to go to natural birth, but I am a bit scared. Hopefully this coming maternity course at St. Vincent can give me insight if natural or cesarian is better for me and my baby. But if my baby really get my husband genes, I think i would prefer cesarian.

I should blog my daily pregnant experience! But now, it’s too late I hope I can do it for my second child

And I am glad that I married my husband, he gave me joys and loves every seconds in my day!

Love you husband!

If I truly love you alone
I will give all my heart to you.
If I love you, we’ll be together, ’till the end of time.

If I love you, when everyone else leave
For you alone, Let me be with you.

If I love you, until the day I die, for you alone
And if I love you, we will always be
When you’re crying in pain, I’ll dry your tears
If I love you, I’ll live for you alone.

If I truly love you alone,
No matter where it is, I’ll wait for you.
If I love you, we’ll be together, no matter what others say.

If I love you, even when I give all to you.
I want to give you more, Let me be with you.

If I love you, until the day I die, for you alone
And if I love you, we will always be
When you’re crying in pain, I’ll dry your tears
If I love you, I’ll live for you alone.

If I love you, when everyone else leave
For you alone, Let me be with you.

If I love you, until the day I die, for you alone
And if I love you, we will always be
When you’re crying in pain, I’ll dry your tears
If I love you, I’ll live for you alone.
I’ll live for you alone.

So busy recently, but I don’t know what I’ve been busying with lol. Just know that I don’t have time to do so much things….. Well, when I do have time, I prefer to rest.
Today nose bleed… too cold and too dry here.

Beuh… looking forward to weekend! go go girl!

I’ve been waiting for my dreams
To turn into something
I could believe in
And looking for that
Magic rainbow
On the horizon
I couldn’t see it
Until I let go
Gave into love and watched all the bitterness burn
Now I’m coming alive
Body and soul
And feelin’ my world start to turn

And I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time
To be more than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

Holding onto things that vanished
Into the air
Left me in pieces
But now I’m rising from the ashes
Finding my wings
And all that I needed
Was there all along
Within my reach
As close as the beat of my heart

and I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life

And I’m out on the edge of forever
Ready to run
I’m keeping my feet on the ground
Arms open wide
Face to the sun

I’ll taste every moment
And live it out loud
I know this is the time,
This is the time to be
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
I know this is the time
This is the time of my life
Time of my life
More than a name
Or a face in the crowd
This is the time
This is the time of my life.
This is the time of my life.

I should not stay in the past. It’s pain and slow to move on but I still need to!
I need time to heal and I do believe in time I be myself again. Watch me!

It’s pain to know the person who causes this pain has gone and maybe pretend to not know about what has happened. *shrug* I should care less because with this I can be stronger. With this I know my own path to happiness is in my own hand and I promise myself, I will not rely on others anymore. The time you walked away, I lost the shoulder I depend on. But with this, Linda will become a new person.

All I can grip is the nice memory and I will not forget about this.

Work… Life… Love… Complicated.